LOST, ramble of thots, fighting the demons

I have demons in my shadows
Nightmares I cant erase
This facade of being ok
There are demons in my shadows
I cant see their face
but I can feel the grasp that they hold
pulling my down to the dark alley's of life
fighting me with all their might
Demons in the shadows
lurking to see
how much damage i'll do just being me
Shutting you out
and giving up on us
but u gave up and left me to walk the darkness alone
Shadows of Demons
I have created
I can cause grief
life is so over rated
So u live for today and thats not true
cuz u forever look back
on the things u couldnt do
Demons
they fight me every nite
I dont even own tears to cry
have they won and will haunt me forever
I need to go to church, read my bible
fight these demons in my shadows
but how do u fight what manifested with in
I have created this sin
No longer searching for self but lost in myself
looking for the light but only GOD can help
This darkness has cast over me...i feel lost on a one way street
please someone help me