Reflection of me

So Many Things are running thru my mind
I dont know where to start
Its like a never ending story
When I was weak I was beat
when I left that alone I moved on and returned home
to my security and he mentally abused me
played on the already exsisting insecurities
and then he was goneI got STRONGand made myself move on
Now that i'm not weak
its seems like niggas cant handle me
Cant handle my truth or strength
I wonder if this would be if i was still the weak minded bitch
I've been molested and raped
abandoned, beaten and thru heartbreak
was grown to fast but thats all in my past
i am growing
trying to be better learning life's lessons
and moving on
i dont need a man to complete me
but having a man is entertaining
maybe thats the problem i am not needy or greedy
i can share love with the world
i want a man confident and caring
who can recognize the goodness he has at home
a man who believes in me and what i can be
who wants to help me achieve so that us together can succeed
I am too grown for games
I did that shit back in the day
I am not obsessed with losing weight
happy with what God has gave
I love all of me
I embrace who I amThe BITCH, The MOTHER, The Lover, and The Fighter
when i reflect on me I feel there is nothing higher
Sometimes cocky but always humble
I wasnt always this waybut i woke up one day and decided
I didnt like what i was
So i made a choice to be the best I could be to better meand be proud of all of me